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This pic is of my elder daughter Erin, then aged 6 months, with my grandmother Winifred, then aged 91. I've been thinking of this photo a lot lately...getting retrospective. My grandma died 24th December 2000 so she's been gone a while. Erin is 14 now...she's getting scarily grown up and is significantly taller than me...not my 'little' baby for a long time now. Not that she ever was particularly little, weighing in at 9lbs 11!

I'm starting to look back on the past with a new eyes... I look back on my kids' younger days and wish I hadn't been so tired, stressed, young and generally barely able to cope. I look back on my relationship with my grandparents and wish I had been mature enough to get to know them...and less afraid. There's something quite scary about old people when you are young I think. A fragility that seems at odds with youth's understanding of life.

There is nothing that can bring back bygone days; to take hold of missed opportunities but I look at this photo and think how I'm going to try not to miss any more.

I will though... We cannot see what might have been, what we ought to have done until the moment has passed. Which is why history is important and why hindsight sucks! All we can ever do is live in the moment and do what we can. So I look at this photo and think - I'm glad my grandma is at peace and I'm glad my daughter has grown up strong and healthy and then I move on. Back in the present, back to what is really important.

:-)